Why Church Leadership Is Such a Crazy Emotional Roller Coaster


Life is emotional. But if you’re in ministry, it feels like it’s even a little more emotional.

As in, crazy-emotional-roller-coaster emotional.

That’s true even if you think of yourself as more rational than emotional. Sometimes you get surprised by how intense ministry is. I started out in my twenties as a lawyer, so emotion wasn’t really a huge part of my wiring.

But within a few years of beginning ministry, I realized that if I didn’t figure out how to navigate the emotions of ministry, I probably wouldn’t make it in the long run.

And looking back on my time in ministry so far,  I can honestly say the biggest crises I’ve had to navigate have not been spiritual or vocational nearly as much as they’ve been emotional.

What I mean by that is I didn’t know how to emotionally cope with the demands of my calling. And, sadly, if you can’t emotionally cope with the demands of your calling, you’ll likely abandon it. Not because you want to, but because you can’t figure out a way to make it work anymore.

My biggest challenges for both paid staff and volunteers seem to involve handling the pressures, challenges, and criticism of ministry.

So, to that end: Why is ministry so emotional for so many?

Here’s my theory. Ministry combines three areas of life that are intensely personal:

Your faith

Your work

And your community

Because of that, it gets confusing.

What you do is what you believe.

What you believe is what you do.

Your friends are also the people you serve and lead.

Throw your family into the mix (because they believe what you believe and are friends with the people you/they lead and serve) and bam – it’s even more confusing.

Because of this, things that normally happen at work very seldom stay at work.

Here are three common pitfalls many ministry leaders struggle with:

1. Disagreements At Home

You and your spouse end up arguing about being out ‘one more night’ at a meeting or event.

But because ‘what you do is what you believe’ you feel that staying home is somehow being ‘unfaithful’ to God.

Cue perpetual conflict right there…unless you figure out how to stop it.

2. Taking Criticism Personally

You get an email or comment criticizing something you said in a message, and you’re really bothered by it. It’s more troubling because you’re not sure whether it means you’ve somehow failed God, not just your employer.

And then guess what? You bring that home to your spouse, who also loves God.

Repeat that pattern multiple times and your spouse can end up resenting the very place that’s supposed to be her spiritual home and the spiritual home of your kids.

Church leaders should take criticism seriously, but not personally. Still, that’s easier said than done.

3. Friendship

One of the worst forms of hurt can come when someone you consider to be a friend becomes a critic of your ministry. I’ve had this happen to me a few times, and it hurts deeply.  When people you share your life with quietly (or not so quietly) start to work against you, it’s very difficult to navigate.

If you don’t navigate these issues well, here’s what can happen as a result.


begin to resent the church you serve

have no idea how to navigate a personal life in the vortex of ministry

stop trusting people

dream of getting out of ministry on your bad days

build up a resentment you’re not sure how to get rid of

You probably think only the way to get off the emotional roller coaster of ministry is to quit.

It’s not.

You don’t have to abandon your calling, even though we live in an age where many do. It’s so tragic, because there is a way to survive, and even thrive.

Believe it or not, there is a way to stay in ministry and not engage all of the emotional twists and turns that leave so many leaders wrung out.

Knowing the reason why ministry is emotional is half the battle, but here’s the other half is about practices you follow to stay healthy.

So  what are those practices? What should you do to stay emotionally balanced and healthy?

Here are six that helped me:

1. Understand the perfect storm of work/faith/community

As I outlined above, the church world is the only place I know of where what you believe is what you do and the people you serve are also your friends. You need to understand this.

If you keep this in mind it will save you a thousand times over. Here’s why: understanding why something is emotionally confusing is the first step toward untangling the issue practically. When you turn on the lights, you don’t have to stumble in the dark.

2.  Find friends who aren’t in your church or organization

Be friends with the people you live with and serve. But find some friends you can talk to about anything.

You don’t need many – even two or three is plenty, but they can be invaluable.

If you only have friends ‘inside’ the church, there’s always a dual relationship. You either don’t disclose enough because you worry about being fired or inappropriate, or you over-disclose and you put a strain on the friendship because you are also that person’s leader.

A spouse or unchurched friend isn’t the right person for talking through every problem with either. Your spouse wasn’t designed to bear the full weight of your frustrations every time you’re frustrated.  And your unchurched friends probably aren’t the right people to confide all your frustrations in either. Because this is the church you’d like to invite them to.

So develop some friendships in which you can talk honestly. It’s healthy.  An easy choice is to find a peer (pastor or key volunteer) in another church or community.

3.  Don’t base tomorrow’s decisions on today’s emotions

This one is so simple but so often missed. Don’t make decisions when you’re angry. Just don’t. Go to bed. Pray about it. Call a friend. Wake up in the morning and then make the decision. Or wait a week.

Don’t make the decision Until. You. Calm. Down.

Never base tomorrow’s decisions on today’s emotions.

You’ll thank yourself later. Unless you want even more terrible emotions, that is.

4.  See a good Christian counsellor

I’ve gone to a counsellor numerous times over the last 15 years. I’m pretty sure it’s why I’m still in ministry and why I’ve got a solid marriage today. My counsellors have helped me see things I’m blind to, challenged me on issues I’m sure God wanted me to deal with and helped me realize that personal change can bring leadership progress.

Don’t think of it as an expense. Think of it as an investment. Your spouse, kids, church and colleagues will be grateful you sought help.

5. Develop a devotional life that has little to do with work

One of the common casualties of serving in the church is your devotional life. You get too busy to read your bible. Or you ‘cheat’ and make your sermon or lesson prep your devotional time as well.

Over the years, I have used the One Year Bible again and again to make sure I read through all of God’s word, not just the parts I’m teaching on. And I try to pray about the things I would pray about if I wasn’t a pastor.

6. Develop a hobby or interest outside of work

Or you might say, get a life.

I struggle with this (because I love what I do), but if you have a hobby like photography, hiking, painting, woodworking, golf, skiing, cycling – something to get your mind and heart into fresh space, you will be richer for it.

For me, three b’s that have become the hobbies I love to do: boating, barbecue and biking (road cycling).

For me, if I didn’t have a hobby outside work, I’d probably just work. Too many driven leaders are like that.

Leaders, work isn’t a hobby. It’s work.

Get Off The Roller Coaster…

Of all the journey a leader takes, the interior journey is the most arduous.

My new book Didn’t See It Coming: Overcoming the 7 Greatest Challenges That Nobody Expects and Everyone Experiences can help.

Didn’t See It Coming tackles the seven core issues that take people out: cynicism, compromise, disconnectedness, irrelevance, pride, burnout, and the emptiness of success and provides strategies on how to combat each.

I wrote the book because no 18 year old sets out to be cynical, disconnected or burned out by age 35. Yet it happens all the time.

The good news is, it doesn’t have to be that way.

Here’s what top leaders are saying about Didn’t See It Coming:

“Seriously, this may be the most important book you read this year.” Jud Wilhite, Lead Pastor, Central Church

“Powerful, personal, and highly readable. ” Brian Houston, Global Senior Pastor, Hillsong

“Whatever challenge you’re facing, whatever obstacle you’re hoping to overcome, whatever future you dream or imagine, there is something powerful for you here.” Andy Stanley, Founder, North Point Ministries

“Uncommonly perceptive and generous…You have to read this book.” Ann Voskamp, NYT bestselling author

“Masterful.” Reggie Joiner, CEO Orange

“Deep biblical insight, straightforward truth, and practical wisdom to help you grow.” Craig Groeschel, Pastor and NYT bestselling author

“This book is sure to help you.” Daniel H. Pink, NYT bestselling author

Over the years, one of the things I’ve enjoyed most about being a public speaker is having opportunities to hang out with Carey…It’s not a matter of if you’ll run into these challenges; it’s a matter of when. Be prepared by spending a little time with a leader who has already been there.” Jon Acuff, NYT best-selling author

“Nieuwhof’s book provides expert guidance…with an accuracy that pierces the heart.” Nancy Duarte, CEO Duarte Inc.

“A refreshingly transparent guide for all leaders in a wide variety of industries.” Bryan Miles, Co-Founder and CEO, BELAY

You can learn more and get your copy of Didn’t See It Coming here.

What Are You Learning?

But in the meantime, how have you found this to be true? What are have you seen people struggle with emotionally in ministry?

And what’s helped you overcome the emotional battle?

Why Church Leadership Is Such a Crazy Emotional Roller Coaster


  1. John Engberg on March 27, 2021 at 10:02 am

    A very good article! Thank you!

  2. Rev Christine Boylan on March 26, 2021 at 5:01 pm

    I became a Minister several years after a divorce. Where I lived I had many friends and family but not a church I could serve in after I became a Minister. So I’m in a new state, a new church and me a new minister! I don’t know anyone or anything about my new environment. Fast forward four years and after reading your post, I’m happy to say I’ve done most of that and am still a happy church Minister. Of course there is that MOST – not all! Finding time for me is still difficult but I get how important it is. Recently I adopted a dog and she is getting me out walking and discovering more about my new home. Church Ministry is not for the faint of heart but yet I love it. Thanks for your advice and suggestions as they help me recommit to a life in AND outside of church!

  3. Pastor Jennifer Shaw on March 26, 2021 at 2:02 pm

    Thank you for another wonderful article! I’ve been truly grateful for your insights, especially over this past year. I also believe you affirm women in ministry leadership, which is why this statement gave me pause: “Repeat that pattern multiple times and your spouse can end up resenting the very place that’s supposed to be her spiritual home and the spiritual home of your kids.” While I imagine it was not intended this way, this language implies that all pastors and ministry leaders are male. Please do keep in mind the women pastors and ministry leaders among us.

  4. Pastor Canaan Grier on March 26, 2021 at 8:02 am

    THANK YOU, THANK YOU, and again THANK YOU!!!!

    This is EXACTLY what I’ve been going and GROWING through.

    I just took a month off from ministry because I was going through a heavy sense of insecurity based unreasonable expectations, thinking that the people I serve don’t see the vision, people have their own vision and don’t trust mine and so many other things.

    It was effecting my mental and physical health. Everything you talked about was so key, I honestly said out loud, “Get out of my head!”

    I appreciate you for being so open and willing to share your wisdom. I’m going to take this info and send it out to my pastor friends and make this article necessary reading for days to come.

    I thank God for you.
    Keep doing what you’re doing, WE NEED YOU!

  5. Emily Nelson on June 16, 2020 at 10:33 am

    So good. I needed this today. Even the picture! Hahaa. That was me yesterday.

  6. Brian Maag on June 15, 2020 at 1:55 pm

    So glad many of my best friends go to the church in the next town (because they grew up there, rather than disliking my church). Nice to have people I can hang out with, who get what parenting is like (even if they don’t all get ministry) and I DON’T have to wear the pastor hat when they come over!
    One of the best lessons my pastor taught me – thanks for the reminder. 🙂

  7. Sue on June 15, 2020 at 2:48 am

    Burn Out Quiz not accessible

  8. Heather Ploen on June 14, 2020 at 5:30 pm

    Link to burnout quiz was incomplete. No button to push to take it.

  9. Felicity Maya-Khumalo on June 14, 2020 at 11:28 am

    Evening Carey, this was so useful to me. Thank you so much for the practical examples and solutions. Keep blessed.

  10. Gary W Whittaker on June 14, 2020 at 6:32 am

    Wise words, even for volunteer leaders. I lead a home group and two Bible studies, and these are valid in all settings. Your practical helps are also spot-on. I think I’m doing pretty well, but it is easy to slip back if I’m not diligent and constantly giving it all to God. Thanks for what you do.
    Reading “Didn’t See It Coming ” for the third time.

  11. Cmun on June 30, 2019 at 7:00 pm

    Thank you for this! I just started full time ministry and working in my church 1 year ago and I am feeling exactly those things you pointed lately. I started to become bitter, angry, frustrated , simply tired and busy, my relationship with God even got colder and I wanted to quit already. I kept saying to myself “it’s not suppose to be this way” . I started to slowly fall into depression and anxiety.

    Carey, you helped me to understand and that I’m not alone in feeling this way. I love the practical tips about meeting with friends outside of the church and finding life outside that’s why I booked a trip to travel to hike and take photos which I haven’t done in a long time due to busyness or simply tired .

  12. Heather Riggs on August 22, 2018 at 11:08 am

    I’ve had better luck with Spiritual Directors than with counselors to help me deal with ministry. Many of them are clergy who’ve been there and they hold me accountable to doing my own spiritual practices. My last counselor was great for helping me deal with some family stuff, but she kept telling me, “I know nothing about being a pastor!”

    There’s a network of Spiritual Directors, but I’ve found mine through an local Ignatian Center and a Franciscan center.

  13. Vivian Bright on August 22, 2018 at 9:11 am

    Thanks Carey and Mike!

  14. Aaron McClary on August 22, 2018 at 9:06 am

    This is so accurate and so good. I, personally, struggle the most with pitfall #2.

    Thankfully, my wife/kids/home is a place of health/joy/safety for me and I work hard to protect that. I’m also thankful that I have a couple of friends outside of my church/ministry that love and encourage me as I do the same for them.

    But when it comes to taking criticism personally, that is a pitfall I succumb to way more often than I’d like to admit. Of the six proposed practices to stay emotionally balanced and healthy, I have found #6 to be the most beneficial in my life. But, my “hobby or interest outside of work” is my family. With a wife and five kids, I don’t need to find something in addition to work that takes me away from them even more than I already am in this particular season of our family life. So, we play lots of games together…we travel together…we do pizza and a movie nearly every Friday night. Prioritizing those relationships has been one of the greatest things I have ever done for my personal well-being and for the health of my ministry.

  15. Cherée Stanley on August 22, 2018 at 8:55 am

    This is such a helpful article!! My husband and I have been serving in our church for about four years. He has been working there for a little over a year. I have been looking for something like this kind of article to help me navigate this new dynamic of life we have. At times, it is so confusing to be in your church home, where you pour it all out, but there’s no one I can talk to. I think it would be helpful to find a counselor who specializes in this type of life mission. Thank you for sharing this!!

  16. Mike Duke on August 20, 2018 at 2:20 pm

    Having raised a family and managed a ministry, I’ve seen burnout in others and myself. I’ve found it very important to not mistake burnout for wipe out. Burn out is brought on by a number of factors and can be lengthy. It can wreak havoc in many areas. But I think it’s always important to break burnout down into it’s elemental blocks. That done you can begin to see you’ve made it all about yourself. You’ve taken on too much because you felt you needed control. You’ve placed yourself in situations because you felt you should be there. You have minimum family requirements because it’s your family and you think you should have the control. You lead because you think you’re supposed to lead. You push to be a good steward because you think you’re supposed to. You strive to become a hero of sorts because you think you’re supposed to.
    Many years I spent circling around myself looking at others as if they were responsible for not making it all about me. I also locked myself in a prison of myself at the same time.
    I come back to scripture to discover it’s not about me at all. Christ took on too much for me. Christ placed himself in areas He thought He should be. Christ took on my family requirements because He has control. Christ became the good steward. Christ became the hero. Looking back you begin to see that where you thought you were so important, you really weren’t at all. This helps moving forward understanding from the text that all my sin, or as you may call it, “mistakes”, have already been covered.
    Personally, I feel that anyone who feels they’ve conquered or broken the code to avoid the emotional roller coaster of ministry, should take an honest evaluation of their office. If it were a pleasant experience, there is no need for the text or Christ. A shepherd is always fraught with mourning at the loss of a sheep. A sheep whining, crying and attempting to be the loudest is simply that. They simply have not gotten the message of the text and it is the job of the shepherd to communicate it.
    It’s always okay to fall short as shepherds. It’s in our genes. The real one true enemy of ourself is much closer than it is often times hard to admit.

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