Love the comments so far…thanks!
So here’s more breakdown on my issue, when I move from "pole" to "pole" in confession. At some points, I’m so aware of my sin that I get stuck there — believing that given my state God can’t use me for anything. This can lead to paralysis. Jesus didn’t die for our sin merely so we would be aware of our sin or sorry for it. He died to conquer it. To kill it. To put it to death so life, not death, could reign in our bodies and lives.
When I’m at the other extreme and not in confession mode at all and probably want to run a small universe on my own power, I’m in double trouble. Not only do I miss what’s really going on (I am sinning and making mistakes), but I’m missing grace and missing real power. Confession isn’t an act of punishment, it’s an act of mercy motivated by love on God’s part. When I don’t confess, I miss that completely.
Christ’s real power comes when I can own up to who I really am and realize that in Him this is not who I need to be. He has a better way — there is hope, and it is possible today to live in that reality of forgiveness and possibility (change) in this moment, right now.
What are the rest of you thinking? What’s the struggle for you? Share more of your stories…your journal. I’d like to dig deeper.