Hi, I’m Carey. And I’m a hypocrite.
My words don’t match my action. My intentions don’t get played out. I think I’m more virtuous than I am. And I’m not sure I represent Jesus or the Christian faith well. Put Jesus beside me, and me beside Him, and see how similar they are. I shudder to think.
Specifically, I snap at the people I love most – despite my desire not to. I obey rules selectively, even though I believe as Christians we need to obey the law of the land (I am the king of rolling stops and drive as though the speed limit is 20 km/h higher than it is). I carry way too many judgmental thoughts. I am desperately selfish, although I understand life comes to us when we give it away. Has God done merciful things in my life? No question. Have I been changed? Absolutely. But I’m still a hypocrite.
Tomorrow morning, I have a breakfast meeting with some Connexus people to finalize plans for our January 08 series "H-Bomb: Killing the Hypocrite Inside". I’ve been planning this series for months, and come at it not as one who has mastered hypocrisy, but as one still struggling in recovery.
I’d love hear from you this week as we head into that meeting and I finish work on the series next week. Do you struggle in this area? What are your issues? You can change your user-id if you want to and post anonymously. That’s up to you. But I’d love to hear about your real life struggles. H-Bomb will try to get to the root of the rot and we’ll spend a few weeks reconstructing our lives in Jesus.
Hypocrisy is pretty much the #1 things non-Christians can’t stand about Christians. But I am convinced it’s not a Christian problem — it’s a human problem. How many of your friends co-workers struggle with the "This is what I want and this is what I know is right, but this is what I do" deal?
So…fire away. I’m all ears. And I think you’ll find I have some sympathy. We’ve all got the disease.